|
l3randiErvin
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Brandi
Country: United States
State: Washington
Birthday: 9/24/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: People,food :), Diving, swimming, COMPUTER , computer games, video gams, (wow im a nerd), family, having partys/going to them, being with people who make me HAPPY, Postive things, TRAVELING ( if i could), meeting new people, experiencing new things, camp(miss a lot), Dreaming, random thoughts, things I cant have, having time for myself
( when needed), Strong realtionships, feeling loved, and one last thing YOU!!!
Expertise: FOOD!!!!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  M00SEonTheLo0se1
Member Since:
5/15/2004
|
|
| overwhelmed.... with love. :D So much to improve, so much life to live. It's so hard to explain, to illustrate this picture, to give words to these emotions. WOW. I'm happy, but not content. Far from it, so much to do... :D
| | |
| A few days spent.... how did you do this to me... | | |
| Pretty much feels like I do not even go anymore? Snow is good. I think I need to start reading text books. To really feel like I'm at least gaining some sort of knowledge. | | |
| Life... I don't even know half of it, yet I want to know all of it. Sometimes I want to get up and leave. Everything behind, go somewhere where no one knows me. If I could paint the scene the colors would be purple,blue, and slight bits of gold. It would all blurrrrr together, and you wouldn't be able to make me out. I feel like a completely different person from a year ago. I feel like I don't know myself. My future goals change monthly. My attitude is dependent on other things. I question what people call morally right. like beauty what you think is right is in the hands of the beholder. Sounds kind of depressing... Life has its up's and downs. This is probably a down. Pull on, pull through. Isn't it amazing...how we can bottle every emotion up and it flows through a smile. Even though thats not truly how you feel. Even when thats because you don't let ANYONE. know too much, and everything you try to say comes out wrong. I guess thats the greatest gift. To have a system where we can hide, we can fake, we can express, we can become, whatever our mind tells us we can. Wait let me rephrase that...Whatever ourselves tell us. Because in the end we have to live with ourselves. I think I'm afraid to appear weak, to let anyone know how I feel because I feel I might break. I want to feel made of steel. I want to be strong, yet maybe thats why I hide it all. Letting it all come out....makes me feel vulnerable to anyone. | | |
| It has been a long time since I have updated.
Where has this year went? It seems like just yesterday I entered highschool, now half way through the year. I feel completly different from then. Lately I have been feeling as if something is missing, but slowly I am finding peace, and life feels complete. I have meet some of the most amazing people this year, and I'm thankful for how much of a postive impact they have made on me.
Its now 2006 and I can't believe where all the time as gone too, I remeber being young, sometimes I miss it, but as I grow older my life is becoming more and more into my hands, I love it.
The biggest obstacle I am learning right now is Independence. I have come to realize, nothing will be given to you in life. If you want it you have to fight for it. I don't want to look back in 10 years and realize I have screwed myself over, that I'm at some job I regret taking. I want to find something I'm passonate about, and I that to me is people. I enjoy being around people, all different types, I learn so much from so many people, and half of them I have never met. I want to understand people, and I don't know what kind of job I will have, I am pretty sure it will include getting to know people.
I need to get started on this project I'm making for my room :] It will feature pictures from over the years, and a thing called, life.
Love it.
| | |
|
